survey, my dream, our thing.

From this one survey that I did:

When are you getting married?:
before 30, hopefully. weird.
- i say before 30 because this is how i see it: before 30, get married then have kids. i want this to happen at a 'somewhat' early age, because i want to see my grandchildren in the future! and also, i don't want to have my children being bastards either. you know what i mean?


How did you and your #1 become friends?:
through badminton, and his friend.
>__>;
- well, when i was in the badminton team for my 10th grade in '05 - '06, i met the rookies in which mark was one of them, he was a freshy. that's when i first met him. but, now.. when i asked why he joined badminton, he said it was because of his friend, Donnie (DJ). DJ convinced mark to join badminton because of the girlies. THERE YOU GO. wow. HAHAH, anyways. he told me that this one time, when everyone was stretching, we all did this one stretch where you had to stand up and bend over to touch the ground and DJ pointed out all the girl's BUTTS, and mark looked at mine. whatta a perv, huh? HAHAH oh well, it's cute.

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my dream:
it all started with a huge party at Morse. Until when these strange prehistoric types of sea creatures came out of nowhere and started terrorizing the party! But then people were killing the creatures too, but then some people died, sad. Anyways, we were forced into this huge shelter like place to protect ourselves from these creatures, in which.. this shelter was a huge theater. Anyways, so to calm people down, someone popped in a movie and people started calming down. Then this one guy stated that it was all right to come out because the creatures were gone. When everything seemed all right, I saw a huge brown and black lobster/bug thing on this huge boulder. So, everyone started killing it and wanting to eat it, since it was a lobster like thing.

when everything was totally fine, these random trees popped out from the ground with huge pokemon character posters on them. whoever pulls out the posters, they would have the game version it was featured in. (that sentence didn't really make sense) anyways, mark stole the pikachu poster from me and it turned into the gold version pokemon game, then i pulled a gangar poster and that turned into a the PURPLE version pokemon game. yeah, i know.. there isn't one, but in my dream there was!

anywho.. after that ordeal, i find out that the badminton team needs rides for a tournament. so, i was helping out with the rides at the marquee on front of morse, until i got this random phone call from Kim. I was like, "WHAT'S UP!?" and she's like, "OH, nothinggg, whatchu doing?" and we were just having this small chat, and then i awoke from an interesting dream.

the end.

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so, me and mark are thinking of giving up some things because we're getting.. fat. awhile back, we did this 'no meat' for two weeks, and it worked. thing is, i pretty much looked the same, and mark's body and arms got smaller in which he didn't like it. but we're going to do something similar to it now:

• no meat
• no fried foods
• sweets on every other sunday
• eating mainly seafood

he's thinking of making this last for at least a month. i don't mind doing this either so.. wish us luck! we're starting this tomorrow: March 30, 2009.

hey there.

so, a little bit more about me that i would want you to know & then a list of to dos! :)

about me:
1. i would get straight to the point of things, but if you want me to give you full details, i'll do it for you. but, i won't continue repeating it if you don't get it. i'll re-explain things at least twice: a) straight to the point & b) full details if you need it. but once i have to repeat it for the third time, i will get annoyed.
2. whenever i meet new people i get scared and shy of what to say. and when i do say or do something i get completely scared that that person might not like how i am acting. so.. i'm not trying to give off a bad vibe, i'm just shy.

TO DO LIST:
- go to at least one amusement park:

• six flags
• disneyland
• legoland

- get a tattoo
- get my face re-tanned. (eye glass tan, FTL!)
- rock climb
- jog/roller blade/bike @ rhor park or lake mira mar
- GET A JOB!
- go to china town for spring break <3
- make an online portfolio for my photography
- lose weight, at least 10 lbs.
- robert's birthday bonfire April 18th (??)
- one year! <3
- eat less meat
- meet more people. :)
- go clubbing!

i think that's all for now.

homework answers: 3/23/09 astr. 101

1. What is Mercury's & Venus' diameter compared to the Earth?
- Mercury is half the diameter & Venus is almost the same diameter as Earth.

2. What is the maximum surface temperature on Mercury & Venus?
- Mercury: 1,080°F , Venus: approx. 900°F

3. What is the hottest planet?
- Mercury, but maybe Venus, the book said if Venus didn't have the greenhouse effect then it would be hotter so, I am not sure.

4. List something very unusual about Venus' rotation.
- it goes clockwise. (i suppose)

5. What is the atmosphere on Mercury & Venus made up of?
- Mercury: H, HE, K, Na, O ; Venus: CO2, N2, H2O

6. Atmosphere pressure on Venus is ___________ atm.
- 90 atm.

i'm posting answers up online for mark, why? because we're sharing my book and he didn't write down the questions. so, here you go! oh.. and sure, if you other people are taking astronomy and HAPPEN to be taking the same class, here are the answers for you too. yay for cheating? haha.. no.

wish list.

i wish i knew what you were thinking.
i wish i didn't act so stupid.
i wish i understood more.
i wish i learned how to be more useful.
i wish i helped you out more.
i wish i knew better.

i just wish for so much other things, but these are the ones that i wish more than ever. but, i don't know any better, so.. i guess those wishes aren't going to be fulfilled any time soon. i'm sorry.

hello, world.

hello, world.
i wish you could read my mind about you.
i wish you would know how to take care of yourself better.
i wish you knew that people out there are suffering.
i wish you should do something about it.

but, you really can't, can you?
so many misconducts has happened, it's so hard to come back from it.
would you think life would be much more better if you, the world, would be taken care of?
honestly, i really don't think so.

but, i do hope that life would be easier now.
so, i'll just continue saying "hello, world" every morning.
in hopes that you'll be taken care of.

take care.

i know one.

i know a bitch who steals.
i know a bitch who copies.
i know a bitch who lies.
i know a bitch who fakes.

you think you're being real?
no, you're just lying to your damn self and others.
bitch, you're not real.

you're just another fake ass bitch just like those other girls.
you smile and think you're being the truest to your friends.
no, bitch, you're not.
inside, you really hate the people you're around.

so, yeah, i know a bitch like that.
so go on and live your life.
like the bitch you are.

take care.

look.

http://www.questcrew.com/

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maniacal, insensitive desires,
it does not matter how one sees it,
but must one really think that it is worth it?
why does one really desire such things?

why must we continue these selfish, greedy desires?
why must we live among these people?
reality is bringing us down into the depths of hell,
while at the same time,
reality has given us a dose of what hell feels like on earth.

whether it's good or bad,
we're always going to live with such unneeded desires.

i don't know what came over me awhile ago, i was making myself upset, and sad. i don't know what to think or say, i just want to be held. i never really met my real grandparents. i don't know what to say, or how i should act around elders. i miss my grandparents. i'm scared to dye being a lonely person, a lonely person who doesn't have any love ones anymore. i'm scared of that thought. i'm scared to think of so many things, all i want to do is close my eyes and sleep. but i feel as if i go to sleep, i'll have a nightmare of something scary. this is stupid, isn't it? yeah.. it is.

thanks for reading anyways. glad you cared to even check my blog out anyways.

my way of life.

so, i just forgot what i was going to blog about. hm.. well, i'll just blog about other stuff i guess. anyways, i stumbled upon my old journal (it's actually a diary, but i don't like that term.), and i was reading through it and i laughed and groaned through the entries. they're so stupid and childish/teenage hormones were going stupidly crazy and emoish. ew, right? anyways, it was just kinda funny to read it, at least i knew that i grew from my experiences and mistakes.

oh! i remembered what i wanted to blog:
i don't care who you are, you can be my bestfriend, friend, boyfriend, family, or just some person i just met; i'm going to tell you the truth whether it hurts or not. why? because, i gave up lying to everyone about anything, i rather be true to someone than lie about what i think. what i say may hurt, but i'm giving you the reality of life, i can tell you what you want to hear, but that is just getting away from the reality. i made a vow to god that i will make people happy with whatever i do, and i thought that would be my only vow to god, but no, i made another one: i'll be true to everyone that i meet. trust me, i'm truly considerate, but you have to understand that at the same time, i'm giving you the reality of life because i want you to stop hiding from life. i know i have been hiding for so long, and i realized that it's pathetic to continue to hide from life, it's always going to be there, and the fact that you're running away from it, isn't going to solve anything. so, deal with what i say, and hopefully it'll help you, if not, then try to figure out a way yourself. i'm not going to apologize for something i didn't do wrong.

you know what made me turn around from what i've been doing for most of my life (running away from life), it's my boyfriend, Mark Tapit. he's the person who has realized that running away from a problem isn't going to solve anything. it was the day during summer, that i dropped off a cheesecake for him that i was supposed to give him the day before, but he was mad so i couldn't. i went somewhere to drop something else off, and he called me to tell me that he wants to talk to me at his place, so after i dropped off whatever, i went back to his house. i called him and waited in my car, and he came outside and sat in my car. he told me that running away from something isn't going to solve anything. and you know what? i turned around from who i was, from who i am today. and you know what else? he is the only one who has actually told me something that made me change for good. i've been given many advices before, but this advice, this advice encouraged me to not be the girl who used to think that she would live underneath a rock forever, to a girl who will continue life while going through any kind of ordeal that i will face. so, i can't ever thank him enough for helping me with my life.


and you know what else? on that day, i was really going to run away from this place. but he saved me. :) so, thank him for saving me, if any of you readers really do care about me.