i came from mad and stressed to upset and stressed to sad and depressed. i'm just so tired of things now. at first, i was being somewhat forced to think that my friends aren't being so reliable. then again, i wasn't thinking that they might've been busy doing other things. i was acting to stupid, that i was being so selfish about how they should be more reliable. i wasn't thinking at all. lately, i've been wanting things they way i want it.
"... just be more open to change"
yeah, i know. i just can't freakin' help it. i try really hard to be patient. it's just so hard to stay patient for so long now. my mind is thinking that i want what i want to happen
now so that nothing bad happens later on. ugh, i just want to get away again. somewhere nice. somewhere without doubts. somewhere without waiting for so long. just somewhere that i can feel much more better at.
